Life in January


Welcome to the first post of This blog has been sitting here waiting for me to start adding black to the white pages. I’m so afraid of white space. But I want this to be my right space; I have a fear of writing mistakes and so I have shied away from creating and evolving this space. But I want this to be my right space. After leaving Ren Was Here I just kept trying to emulate other blogs with Simply Lauren and it became something of a chore and I quickly abandoned it. I realized that I needed a brand new outlet, a white space, so I tried a completely different platform. The Lauren Marie has evolved so much since I bought the domain back in April of 2014. But, I think the space is ready for me, and I ready for it. I want to document my life. Whether I have 1 reader or 100 readers, I need to be me. You’ll see me in all facets of life: spiritual, physical (fitness), mental, musical, etc.

My life has been so up and down in January but here are some of the highlights:

  • I started a strong workout routine and watched it fizzle as strongly as it had started.
  • I passed my first test towards my insurance designations.
  • Found a love for Flat White from Starbucks.
  • I announced I am going to the UK for a week in April.
  • Discovered and completed the podcast SERIAL
  • After almost 2.5 months of training I started my job (scary)

I didn’t share my goals for January, nor have I shown my vision for 2015. Sometimes I feel like January wasted away. But, it’s ok. I’m learning that it’s ok not to blog, Instagram, post on facebook, or tweet. My life doesn’t revolve around social media. I want to portray a life that is centered on God, but all I seem to do is center it on Lauren. My word for 2014 was FOCUS – and wow was it hard. Focusing on the things that matter and leaving behind the things that don’t, seemed impossible. I received my 2015 word in a women’s ministry meeting, and realized that God doesn’t see me as a failure. He doesn’t see my January as wasted. He sees my January as a growth period. I’m excited for my 2015 word: PERSISTENT. What a word! I realized that God’s been trying to say persist, push through, you know what you want, now act. Persist in prayer, persist in writing, persist in music, persist in seeking Me, persist in working out. 

I feel I’ve seen little growth in my personal life. I’m still as unorganized as I was at the beginning of last year and my bank account is emptier then it should be and my body is becoming fluffier than fitter. But, other parts of my life have grown so much. I’m learning that persistence is the key. I'm learning that God wants persistence over perfection. I'm not nor will I ever be perfect, so, why do I strive for the unattainable? 

Do you have a word for 2015? If so, what is it? Have you ever chosen a word for the year? How was your January?