How Fear Can Steal Your Dreams and Waste Your Passion Part One

How Fear Can Steal Your Dreams and Waste Your Passion Part One

Fear has crippled me. Fear has made me feel less than. Fear has pretended to be my friend while stabbing me in the back.


One thing that I didn’t notice until right now, is that Fear had disguised itself as security. I used security as an excuse. Security became my crutch. I thought if I just kept saying no to everything, I’d keep myself from getting hurt.

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2016 Word of the Year

I can already feel that 2016 is going to be a big year. You can see a lot happened in 2015 in my prior post and I know I saw substantial growth!

I'm dubbing 2016 the year of the "hustle".

I want to work hard and see it pay off. I don't want to complain about my job, or other of life's circumstances. I don't want to be in debt, I want my car paid off, I want to start working on a business that I can create and dream up and see come to fruition. I'm ready for this to be my year: mentally, spiritually, financially, physically, and emotionally. 

I prayed and asked God what word He saw for me this year. I've received one in 2014 and 2015. 2014 was FOCUS and 2015 was Perseverance. 2016 is going to be the hardest year yet, but if I really FOCUS on this word and PERSEVERE through the hard times, the growth will be exponential.   This word encompasses all of my thoughts and goals this year. This word is something I should always be striving for.

DRUM ROLL PLEASE!

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Stewardship is a very big word. In that this is not an easy task. But I'm so grateful I won't be doing it alone. I know this year is going to be my hardest year yet. I know it's going to be taxing and complicated and tiring and frustrating and stretching and fulfilling and blessed and awesome and big and grand and spectacular and epic. 

We are all called to be stewards. Stewards of our time, our talent, our money, our world, our relationships, our stuff. If you have control over something, you are a steward. Sadly, I've been treating myself, my stuff, and everything else poorly. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of a messy car and room. Where I'll clean it and then it just "blows up" again. It's not because I'm not trying, but I'm not being a steward of what has been given to me. Life is hard and somehow I'm making it harder for myself! 

This year will be learning to take care of me, my finances, my dreams and goals, and my world.

Each month I'll introduce a word for that month. I know it's already towards the end of January, but, I'm going to work my hardest at accomplishing these things. My life has been sub-par recently and that's my own fault for not turning it around. But I've picked myself up from the muck and I've started to see that there will be a light at the end of the tunnel if I push myself! So, stay tuned for the word for January. I'll talk a little bit more how that word came about and how it fits into the word of the year.

Do you have a word for the year? A focus? I sure hope so, it helps us grow and become people on purpose. :) I want to hear about your goals for the year too. Don't you worry your pretty little heads. I'll share my goals for the year as well. Sadly, I've been slow moving this month, but the momentum is buiding! Also, look for a readers survey and some other fun stuff to come! This year is the year of the hustle!

Life in January

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Welcome to the first post of thelaurenmarie.com. This blog has been sitting here waiting for me to start adding black to the white pages. I’m so afraid of white space. But I want this to be my right space; I have a fear of writing mistakes and so I have shied away from creating and evolving this space. But I want this to be my right space. After leaving Ren Was Here I just kept trying to emulate other blogs with Simply Lauren and it became something of a chore and I quickly abandoned it. I realized that I needed a brand new outlet, a white space, so I tried a completely different platform. The Lauren Marie has evolved so much since I bought the domain back in April of 2014. But, I think the space is ready for me, and I ready for it. I want to document my life. Whether I have 1 reader or 100 readers, I need to be me. You’ll see me in all facets of life: spiritual, physical (fitness), mental, musical, etc.

My life has been so up and down in January but here are some of the highlights:

  • I started a strong workout routine and watched it fizzle as strongly as it had started.
  • I passed my first test towards my insurance designations.
  • Found a love for Flat White from Starbucks.
  • I announced I am going to the UK for a week in April.
  • Discovered and completed the podcast SERIAL
  • After almost 2.5 months of training I started my job (scary)

I didn’t share my goals for January, nor have I shown my vision for 2015. Sometimes I feel like January wasted away. But, it’s ok. I’m learning that it’s ok not to blog, Instagram, post on facebook, or tweet. My life doesn’t revolve around social media. I want to portray a life that is centered on God, but all I seem to do is center it on Lauren. My word for 2014 was FOCUS – and wow was it hard. Focusing on the things that matter and leaving behind the things that don’t, seemed impossible. I received my 2015 word in a women’s ministry meeting, and realized that God doesn’t see me as a failure. He doesn’t see my January as wasted. He sees my January as a growth period. I’m excited for my 2015 word: PERSISTENT. What a word! I realized that God’s been trying to say persist, push through, you know what you want, now act. Persist in prayer, persist in writing, persist in music, persist in seeking Me, persist in working out. 

I feel I’ve seen little growth in my personal life. I’m still as unorganized as I was at the beginning of last year and my bank account is emptier then it should be and my body is becoming fluffier than fitter. But, other parts of my life have grown so much. I’m learning that persistence is the key. I'm learning that God wants persistence over perfection. I'm not nor will I ever be perfect, so, why do I strive for the unattainable? 

Do you have a word for 2015? If so, what is it? Have you ever chosen a word for the year? How was your January?